Frust

I'm so frustrated today!!
I closed the file full of new contents by accident and I HAVE TO RE-TYPE ALL 130 NAMES AND THE RESULT OF EACH STUDENT !

OHMAIGOD! feel like punching the wall at that time.
after that , i kinda got 'tegur' by parents because i couldn't put their son in the class they want. Because they came late ( for goodness sake! its 31st Dec already! practically last day of 2011. u expect the class be empty and wait for your son?! ) there are only 2 classes left. the one with less student. oh my goodness!!!! felt so crumpled at that time . Its not like I can cry over something petty like that but my feelings were crumpled like unwanted piece of paper and thrown into hot water.

I feel so SUCK at work today.

Paper Cut

I was working last evening folding letters and i accidentally cut myself. Guess what?  Paper Cut. =.=

Then blood ( tiny bit) starts to come out. It got itchy after 2 milliseconds.

And i thought of this
'Men are like paper cuts. Scratched when it itches,bleed after being scratched'


You must be thinking, " what on earth is this person babbling bout paper cuts and whats the relationship between men and the cuts?!"

What i want to say is, they tease or joke with us ,us falling in love with him,and getting hurt after that.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! *oops* happy on coming NEW YEAR!!!!

Hey girls and Boys out there! Merry Christmas  ( i know its late =) )
today i'll be posting my latest products. All my products are sold in Vintage 11 ( http://www.facebook.com/pages/Vintage-11-online-shop/153988704670559 )

Here's the first one. I've not thought of a name of them yet, so I'll leave this task to my new best friend which is also one of the admin of Vintage 11.okay. Here's really the first one.

- This is a very simple feather charm necklace. But! =)  I understand that you girls often have a hard time fumbling with the lobster clasps of your necklace. So here's one that the clasp is in front. Put it around your neck and reach for each end of the necklace. ( remember~ its not at the back anymore. So reach not to the back of your neck . *thats what i keep doing  XD ) And close the clasp at the ring linking both the charm and the nacklace. =)
the price will be decided together with the admins of V11 soon!

The second one, this one below, is the same as the first one just that its a peace charm 'stead of the feather charm.

This is an anklet. Made of silver chain material. It really looks flimsy but trust me,its STRONG. This flimsy material looks pretty on girls and guys,because the feeling it gives off is that ' oh~ im here but I'm not here. *get me?* its like its not there but its there...' <-hope you can understand this.
And oh!!! i forgot to mention that the 2 chain material is the same as this anklet. In fact, there are a few more ( below) will be made of the same material.

these are products if the same chain material as mentioned above. just that there are a couple of the gun metal ones. =) p/s i love gun metal chains
there are stars, and smileys.

I certainly understand that Christmas is over. BUT how bout NEW YEAR? Going to countdowns with friends,family,life partners,partners,and your pet. these babies below, i made them the same way as the Christmas babies were made but different colors. so do have more patience ( is that the right spelling? sorry I've nt been to school for a long time since its HOLIDAY) and scroll down.
there are many pretty vibrant colors to choose from and charms could certainly be added if requested.
I personally like grey and recently taken a liking to red,so, one of my creations will be in grey and red. suitable when having fun and nights/days where you're out for an event in glamorous dress and gowns,ladies!

this bracelet above is a combination of baby pink, dull metallic honeysuckle and grey. <3 these colors

baby blue + cobalt ( sort of) + grey



HOOKAY!!!!
these should be enough~ XD See more on Vintage 11 on their Facebook page!

Christmas is here! Grab BOTH!

This is zhe NEW product!!!
beloved readers, please check it out on Vintage 11(online shop) ! here's the link 
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Vintage-11-online-shop/153988704670559
RM15.90 per bracelet. RM28 for TWO! This baby and the rest of the babies in the CHRISTMAS THEMED COLLECTION will be available for remakes. (while my beads lasts! XD <3 )

Dear Readers~

 this is teaser #2 of the day!!!! Name : Freedom
This is 100% handmade by me. yes this emotional girl here... =) please support my friends and I on Vintage 11 Facebook page. Here's the link
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Vintage-11-online-shop/153988704670559
thank you very much my dear readers who's been reading AND those who's just started reading. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! <3

dear readers, have you heard of Vintage 11 ? Vintage 11 is an online shop ( which is active on Facebook) where they sell many good quality accessories at a reasonable price. Picture above is 'Peace'

Men

Today,one malay guy used his motor to bang open the gate of my house. ( the outer gate) walked in and opened the cupboard like he's opening one in his house. But luckily he didn't come into the house. just at the porch. (quite a wide space in front of the house before the outer gate where my mom parks her car.) he looked at me and casually said fuck you. WHAT THE HELL?! but for goodness sake and thank god, he didnt take many things, just couple of scrap metals like nails,screws,nats etc.
ppl sure would scream. (girls) i didnt scream. Instead, i called my father to come back instantly. when he came back, the malay man has already left. All i get is scoldings from this man called *father.dad* not once. But twice. what the hell is wrong with him?! Is it my fault that the thief came in? Am i the one who opened the door and invited him in? MAN. MEN. MEN. shit useless man of my household. no asking if i'm okay or whatsoever. SCREW YOU


Thanks to my mom, my old man( be glad i still called him MY old man) sent an sms telling me that he's sorry and he's angry because he's having class what ever shit. I didn't reply to that message. I'm not going to answer his calls from now on and I'm not going to call him 'dad' when he's home. THATS THAT. Until when I'm going to continue not calling him and answering his call.. I dunno. It depends. As long as I'm still angry and upset,he wont hear a word from me.

THAT'S IT. MAN. MEN.SUCH A USELESS MAN IN MY LIFE

Tears

 Just now,when I was on my way home, I saw a little kid hugging his dog. Tears came stinging my eyes. It was actually because I'm imagining myself hugging a puppy and what if he/she peed on me? supposed to laugh dont you think so? BUt instead, i'm almost crying. I cant sob with my mom beside me in the car,can I?  I remember carrying my dog into the car and going into the vet. my mother said that ppl say if dogs leak, it means that its almost time. I was crying cats and dogs already. She kept whining in the car. * I'm tearing up again.
* sorry for the language
when we reached the vet,that man in charge in the counter is taking is own effing sweet time asking my mom for infos. And he fucking asked us to wait. FOR GOODNESS SAKE! EVERYONE CAN SEE THAT MY GIRL IS ALREADY LIMP IN MY HANDS! AND HE DARED TO ASK US TO WAIT! SCREW HIM! CANT HE SEE THAT ITS AN EMERGENCY?!

And during her struggle with the death angel, she lost. God took her back. I lost her on 24th September

Right now and up till now, I've been suppressing myself and my tears inside myself.  I have a feeling that one day, my water reservoir will break and everything will gush out. I need someone. I need a shoulder. A shoulder that'll only be mine to lean on....

Emotions

The main reason why i started a new blog is because i felt a little hurt that my best friend had a blog without telling me about it. its not a must.. but its usual for her to tell me to go check it out or so.. u can say i started this blog because of that petty reason. Im not really a computer person.. but who cares~ as long as i can express my self.

what am i actually? who am i? WTH
i understand how complicated a person can be. because im one of them. im one of the ppl who's complicated. I myself, i often think and 'fan' about things. especially when it comes to work, i busy myself and panic myself resulting in gastric( nt very often luckily) ppl usually call ppl like this 'ppl who creates things to worry about'
dont treat me like a guy! dont treat me like a girl~ what exactly izit that i want?? i feel like nothing.  i feel nothing in my life. well~ i might be reall happy at times.. but after all the happiness went to others, whats left of me? like a dead hermit in its own shell.


* Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a
point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5

read above? yes. its seriously true. its something that even i wouldnt be able to describe and express the way i want it.  but some are not true. i dont feel that im trying to be an example for younger kids.. 

its not easy dealing with me. my inner emotions are so friggin complicated that even i dont know what i want. Dilemma? think so~

I'm standing in path. A path which later on branches into many other paths. Each are calling me to walk their pathway.... And I'm still standing there